Let My Life Define Denial

I just want to say

I don’t want to be ok

I’d rather, this suffering last

Than let go of the past

I’ll be all alone

Once I let this distress go

I know that’s true

But pain is all I have left of you

Alone isn’t what I fear the most

It’s not having grief, not having your ghost

Each wave of agony,

I still get to feel

What you left for me,

I hope I never heal

I’m fine to be here a while

Let my life define denial

Let it be my life sentence

Fuck acceptance