Reality Wasn't Once On My Xmas List

I remember the sadness of that tragic day

When they took the rest of the magic away

It wasn't anything I didn't know already

Honestly

I just wasn't ready

Like I tried to halt

The growing up, I already knew enough

About becoming an adult

Kurt Cobain was alive

Until they said he was dead

And Santa was real

Until they took him from my head

I plugged my ears

Resisted that inevitable truth

Turned my eyes away

From measurable proof

Angels no longer heard on high

Only my lonely sighing

Rudolph falls,

Who once was flying

Although

I never could have called that "lying"

I'll always take the magic

Even if it comes with a side of crying

Reality

Wasn't once

On my Xmas wish list

But there is happiness

Spread thick

Through Christmas

In my

Memory's mist

I remain

Grateful for that Gift

And somewhere inside

I

Still Believe:

Santa Does Exist